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Monday, April 04, 2005

its not like anyone understand how i feel;
i'm drifting again,
walking through a never ending road.
i can see no light;
to lead me back to the right path.
tell me what's right,what's wrong.
i don't know any longer.
what am i living for?
i wonder.
for myself?or for others?
there's nothing to look forward to,
except this empty life of mine,
how i wish i never existed,
i abhor living in this hypocritical world,
whereby you can trust no one.
who am i?
nobody.
just a hypocrite who lives behind the mask.
i have to conceal the true me.
i have to pretend to be happy as days pass,
when actually,
i'm breaking down soon.
i despise myself.
for not having enough courage to face up to reality.
i hate myself,
for not being able to be who i wanna be,
and live how i wanna be.
but its all meant to be.
this is my life.
i got to accept it no matter what.
i just got to stay strong.
even if no one understands,
or no one cares,
and that i am all alone here by myself.
i must buck up and pull myself together.
though i am really tired,
i must not give up.
i gotta learn to tolerate,
and live like there's no tomorrow.
because i don't have a choice.
i don't choose for things to happen.
but its all fated.
life sucks.